natural pg #1 ended in very early miscarriage - was told that these things happen
natural pg #2 ended again in very early miscarriage - was told that until it happened 3X it was just bad luck. However, three weeks later, OB was concerned that I had not passed any "tissue" and called for emergency lap due to suspected ectopic. Was not ectopic.
natural pg #3 - upon self-referral to RE I was found to be pg on first appt. Heavy bleeding at 7 weeks, emergency lap for ectopic
Had every test in the world - found to have luteal phase defect, and to have t-shaped uterus. Got mother's OB records from her pg with me, she had taken diethylstilbestrol (DES) from week 10 to 14 resulting in my t-shaped uterus, funky tubes, and auto-immune issues including elevated Natural Killer cells and anti-thyroid antibodies. Was treated with clomid and progesterone.
Clomid pg #4 - miscarriage about 8 weeks
Clomid pg # 5 - ectopic, lost left tube
Surprise pg #6 - despite all warnings that I would lose this either early as before, or in second trimester, or CERTAINLY would give birth prematurely -and first trimester bleeding - I was induced at 10 days post EDD and delivered by c-section at 12 days post EDD a healthy baby girl!
natural pg #7 - suspected ectopic due to slowly rising betas and nothing visible on u/s - "treated" with methotrexate at 12 weeks
natural pg #8 - with progesterone - miscarriage at 10 weeks after seeing hb and fetal movement and normal high betas (actually passed fetus and placenta at 12 weeks FOLLOWING a D&C)
clomid pg #9 - ectopic
pg #10 - IVF and immune treatment (IVIG, progesterone, aspirin, heparin, etc, etc) - healthy baby boy at 37 weeks following preterm labor, bedrest, attempted VBAC and emergency c-section due to cord knots - congenital orthopedic birth defect of left leg
pg #11 - FET from IVF #1, less agressive immune treatment (aspirin, heparin, progesterone) - initialy pg with triplets, spontaneously reduced to singleton, healthy baby girl at 36.5 weeks after pre-term labor
SO - it's a rough road to be sure, but you can survive and be sucessful with persistence and good medical help. In addition to PGD - have you had immune testing?? I know the feeling of not thinking you can handle another failure. I can only say that hope springs eternal and that I was pretty messed up after five consecutive losses. I'd want to leave no stone unturned in testing and treatment - which is why we went to immune treatment and IVF. We to thought it was $$$ and no way could we afford that, but we did it. I borrowed from my retirement account.
Hugs and best of luck -
Sue