So I went for my first ultrasound on 8/11/2017 and things went horribly wrong..
I go in giggly and so happy to see my little bean. im supposed to be 8w3d as of yesterday based off my last missed period. So i lay down on the bed so she can do the abdominal ultrasound. She is mashing really hard and then tells me she can't see good that she needs a vaginal ultrasound.. So i go take my pants off come back in and we do it vaginally.. I told my husband get your phone out soSo I went for my first ultrasound yesterday and things went horribly wrong..
I go in giggly and so happy to see my little bean. im supposed to be 8w3d as of yesterday based off my last missed period. So i lay down on the bed so she can do the abdominal ultrasound. She is mashing really hard and then tells me she can't see good that she needs a vaginal ultrasound.. So i go take my pants off come back in and we do it vaginally.. I told my husband get your phone out so you can record it because if the baby moves i want to have it on video. She says "no I'm sorry u can't have phones taking pictures or video but don't worry honey i will give you pictures."
She continues with the vaginal ultrasound and is so quite looking at my ovaries and my uterus but never says anything about a baby and i get really worried. I see something on the screen that i think resembles a baby but i see no movement, no heartbeat nothing. She stops the ultrasound. Never prints any pictures and tells me i can put my clothes on and the doctor will be in to talk to me.
So me and my husband are worried and asking what's wrong, what's wrong and she looks at us and says "im just not seeing what i need to see and the doctor will be in to talk with you."
Im crying the entire time i put my clothes on bc i KNOW everything is not Ok.
The doctor comes in and stands directly in front of me and says "so i dont know what's inside of you but it's not a baby. Whatever this thing is is recieving blood flow from your body. It looks like a mass or a tumor to me or possibly a molar pregnancy which is basically when your egg that has none of your genetic material in it gets fertilized by your husbands sperm . so the cells only have his genetic makeup and that's not enough to survive, so your body grows the placenta but not the baby." She then tells me that a surgeon is on her way to come speak to me about getting surgery to remove whatever this thing is inside of me out...
I go into a different room to wait on this surgeon. Having only about 10 mins to cope with the news i just got that im not going to have this baby i have been thinking of for the past month and now i have something that can hurt me inside of me...
The surgeon arrives and starts explaining to me what this thing could be and starts using words like cancerous and blood transfusion during surgery and is telling me all the risks of all different kinds of treatment plans. I know thats her job but there is no compassion in that room and im just devastated.
So after explaining everything she tells me that she will talk it over with the other surgeons after my blood work comes back and see if they need to operate today or if they can wait till monday or tuesday next week. I go get my blood drawn and i leave waiting by the phone for the call.
Three o clock on the dot a surgeon calls me and gives me some news and says " ma'am we have no idea whats inside of you. BUT your HCG levels are reading 1170 which is putting u at 3 to 4 weeks pregnant." My mouth is wide open im in shock and i cant speak. Because 3 hours ago i was told multiple times that whatever was inside of me ABSOLUTELY was not a baby and whatever it was needed to be removed for risks of cancer then u call and say there could b a baby in there!! He then says " I cannot operate on you with there being any chance of u having a viable pregnancy. Because it could have just been too small to see. So what i need you to do is come back up to the hospital on sunday and have your blood work done again and wait for your HCG results if they are going up we are going to wait till they reach 3000 and do another ultrasound to see if we can see anything. If not THEN we will operate to see whats inside of u."

So at this point idk whats going on. Idk if im pregnant with a baby, a placenta, a tumor, a fibroid, or a mass of some sort.

Ive been reading tons of articles that relate to my story and ALOT of them resulted in good news of just being earlier than they thought . of course im trying to be hopeful but not to hopeful because i dont want to be let down that hard again. This is by far the hardest and scariest thing i have ever dealt with.

Today 8/13/2017

I went to the doctors office to have an hcg quantity lab done to see if my levels had dropped from the original 1170.. And they did they were 850.
The doctor told me that that told him i am having a non viable pregnancy and he wanted to do 2 things he wanted to do a d&c and also take a camera up there because he disnt know what the mass was so he didnt know how to remove it so the camera would give him a better idea of how to deal with it.

I have a pre op appointment tuesday to schedule d&c and i asked the doc if we could do a last hcg test to make sure its not rising to ease my mind and now im grieving about my lost baby but im scared about this mass no one has any idea about.

Anyone have any insight on this type of thing?